If I Have One Wish, It Would To Be With My Baby. There Isnt Anything For Me Here In This World. If I Can I Want To Disappear Completely. What I Want Is Impossible, I Know I Will Never Get To See You Ever. “Yea Everybody Hurts, But Not Everyone Heals” I Still Miss You Very Much!!
R.I.P PuddinG 08/23/2011.

I choose to not say things or let to people knows how i feel because i trust NO ONE. To me everyone seems the same no matter guys or girl. All of them choose to hurt one another, they lie, they cheat, betrays. I rather have no one than be lied to or made a fool. I see it all around me this guy talking to his girlfriend on his phone next thing you know he is flirting with his classmate. I’m sorry if people thinks that not all people are the same but they all makes the same mistake. I know whats its like to be hurt i dont want to be hurt again. Ive been blame for something that they didnt understand because im not easy to understand. No one will ever understand me. Im better as an outcast.

Today Is One Of Those Days That You Just Wanna Cry.. One Of Those Days That Youre Hurt. One Of Those Days That You Didnt Matter Most. One Of Those Days That You Wasnt Heard. One Of Those Days That Youre Invisible To The World. One Of Those Days You Just Dont Care Anymore.. Its Today That You Are Really Alone..

Sometime People Just Arent What They Seem To Be. Like You Think You Know Someone Really Well But You Know What They Turned Out To Be A Backstabber. Its Sometime Funny People Pretend To Be Your Friend Or Be Fake With You. I Gotta Say People Can Be Unpredictable During Certain Situations. I’m Still Tough To Read And Understand I Guess No-One Will Ever Understand Me. I Probably Only Have Two BestFriends That I Truly Trust. But Im Still On My Guard I Know I Cant Let People Know What My Thoughts Are. Lol. Even If Something Is Bothering Me I Wouldnt Say It Even If It Kills Me. Ive Learn Not To Speak Of My Feelings And Show Them Because I Felt As If Theyre Lying To Me. For Now I Will Be A Normal Person Who Doesnt Worries About Unnecessaries Things Or People.

Life Is Unexpected Sometime. When Youre Young Carefree Nothing Really Bothers You Much. Life Is Just Too Short To Really Give A Fukk About Complicated Things. You Hang Out With Your Friends Go Do Some Random Crap. As Years Progresses People Start To Grow Up And Grow Apart. Your Friend Stabs You In The Back Or They Just Stop Talking To You All Together. Then It Makes You Think That Life Isnt Always What It Seems To Be. Nothing In Life Is Always Jolly You Know. People Tends To Be Fukked Up. Just Like When You Think You Know Someone Really Well But You Actually Dont. Like When You Think Your So Happy That You Finds Someone That Changed Your Life But Its Just An Illusions. How Do You Lose Your Love For Someone? How Do Get Tired Of Someone You Love? Just When You Thought Someone Really Loves You But That Person Really Dont. Makes You Think Of What Went Wrong? Just When Life Gets Good It Throws You A Curve Ball That You Cant Dodge It. The Truth Is That Sometime Life Is Not What It Seems.

For A Moment I’m Gonna Cut Myself Away From This World, Forget Everything I’ve Been Through And Escape To A Place To Find What Im Looking For. But What Am I Looking For? What Do I Want? I Just Want To Isolate Myself From Everything. I Want To Take This Journey On My Own Like I’ve Said Before Only I Can Find The Answer Myself. To Find My True Self Is To Look Within Myself. I Know Myself That People Will Never Understand Me The Way I Want Them To Understand Me. Im Taking All This Burden All By Myself And I Dont Want To Care About Anything Or AnyOne Anymore. I Hate That Im No Longer In Control Of Myself. Something Else Speaks Louder Than My Voice And Its Taken Control Of Me. Im Just A Prisoner Of My Own Emotions. And I Hate Every Ounce Of Me For Being This Way. For Now Im Gonna ERASE Everything From The Past To This Piont.

Sometime I Dont Really Know Who Iam Or How I Really Feel Toward Things. This Part Of Me Questions My Existance. Why Am I Really Here? What Is My Purpose? Who Acknowlegde My Existance. I Dont Want This Hate Inside Me. I Dont Want Anyones Pity. I Just Want To Know If Someone Out There Needs Me. Ive Been Forgotten And Ive Been Erased. I Dont Know What Im Doing Any More. Ive Walked My Own Path And Lived Through My Consequences From The Decisions Ive Made. After All These Years I Still Dont Know Who I Really Am. Sometime I Just Dont Care Anymore. I Have No Emotions, No Sadness, No Happiness, No Laughter, No Feelings At All. She Tells Me Shes Hurt, Shes Been Betrayed Shes Drowning In Her Own Tears As She Sit On The Floor. I Just Stood There Staring At Her Crying Not Saying One Word Or Change My Facial Expression. She Lets Her Emotions Take Over Her, And I Hide It For Her. She Relays On Her Heart To Make Decisions While I Relay Facts To Make Decisions. But The Truth Is I Need Her Because IS Part Of Me. She Is Love, Compassion, Patience, Forgiving, Caring And Warm. I Am Hate, Detaching, Stubborn, Ruthless, Cold. With Love/Hate We Make One Whole Person.

I Enjoy People Around Me Happy And Laughing. I Guess Thats Why Sometime I’m Such A Clown. I Cant Bringing Smile To People Face Because Everybody Can Use A Smile Once In Awhile. All My Friend Likes My Company I Guess Being The Only Aquarius I Stand Out Alot. I Have This Habit Where If I Want Something And I See Someone Else Have Ot I No Longer Want That Particular Item. Everything I Have Is Unique With My Touch To It. My Behavior And My Habits. I Have A Thing About Observing People I Don’t Know, This Part Of Me Makes The Choice Whether I Want To Be Their Friends Or Not. I’m Very Caring And Love My Friends And Family. I Maybe Sweet But If You Lose My Trust Please Don’t Think I Will Acknowlegde Your Existance. I Can Be Detaching Sometime Because Its Just The Way Iam. Im Very Opinionated Toward Certain Things. And When Comes To Personal Advice I Don’t Give Out Any Because I Won’t Take Any. I Will Listen To What You Say But Don’t Expect Me To Do What Is Said. I Follow My Heart Even Though I Know My Gut Is Right But My Heart Is Important. I Am Very Stubborn I Can Truly Admit That. I Always See Things Positively Even If I Don’t Show It. I Tend To Act The Way I Feel, I Show My Emotions Rather Than Saying It. Iam Very Loyal And I Don’t Betray My Friends. My Friends Say Its Hard To Understand Me, Its Not Hard To Understand Me Its Just Hard To Know Who I Really Am. Im Very Dedicated, I Just Don’t Believe In Giving Up Unless Theres A Reasons To. When Im In My Thinking Mode I Blocked The World From Me. My Emotions I Always Hide Whats Bothering Me Or My Sadness. I Tends To Conceal My Pains. Behind Every Smile Theres A Painful Past. But I Choose To Smile Over Everything. My View Toward Life Is That Theres HOPE Even When There Seems To Be None. When You Smile With Your Heart You Over Come Sadness And Pain Giving You A Reasons To Believe In HOPE.
This Is Me An Aquarian.